how is it that every single musical i've ever listened to makes me want to cry? that's not right.

anyways, i guess this is more of a pick-up update than an actual update.

carrie, brittany and i walked past this handmade soap shop earlier today. oh, you should have smelled it. it was the most glorious thing my nose has ever smelt. thank god for hand made soaps, i say.

anyways. i think today is the first day i've worn contacts and makeup in about a month in a half. it feels kind of nice.

i had a master class. it's kind of like a mock-up recital. i got a lot of compliments on my outfit. today was a bit of a confidence boost.

i say anyways a lot. and i do believe the more accurate thing to say would be "anyway". it's probably best that i just not say it at all. but, you know, old habits die hard, yada yada yada.

i wrote letters to the majority of my good friends this week. it felt really good. it's just really satisfying to drop that letter in the mailbox. i don't know, i've never really written letters before.

i wonder if i'm any different than i was before i got here. i mean, of course some things have changed. but i wonder if people will hang out with me and think to themselves, "wow she has really matured" or "wow she's more funny/aware/awkward/bitchy now"

like i said before. i feel the same. i still don't know so many things. i'm still kind of ridiculous.

well, i mean. i'm totally ridiculous.

yesterday i met this girl who was basically the same as me. she drove me bats. but really, she was essentially my personality twin. i wonder if i piss people off as much as she pissed me off. it might have been that we were just to similar. i mean, for christ's sake, we were wearing the same color!

it's hard to compete, you know.